Inspired by @cityvswoods this is just the beginning. I thought I’d start off with something that adequately described what I’ve been feeling lately. I have always been myself •unorganized, chubby, bad teeth, loud, abrasive, open minded, polite, crazy• and i use to love every part of me. As time has passed and so have people in my life, I have realized what I’ve been shaped into. A sad, pathetic, girl who is pretending to be okay. I let everyones words sink so deep into me, no matter how hard I scratch and scream it will not leave. I live everyday for everyone else around me. I censor myself, I hold back, I second guess, I tip toe until my toes are bleeding. I am trying to be the standard of beauty around me. Poking and prodding until the ugly goes away. I can’t stop until I get approval from the deafening audience around me.There is a lot going on right at this very moment. Death, birth, rape, starvation, everything. My mind is always spinning. Maybe this is my way to help. Maybe you can help me? Maybe I can help you. Let’s find out. Comment, Dm, message on Twitter. Anything. I suggest to check @cityvswoods if you would love some cleansing of the poetic soul. #poet #poetry #life #questions #problems #help #talk #advice
This is one of these instances where the “BEAUTY!” siren is going off in my brain like an alarm signal
(Source: blog.nwf.org)







